I am so back!

It's been a while since I created my last post. I made several drafts but for some reason, I couldn't post it yet. I don't have my own laptop yet, but I will surely get one the soonest. Harhar, it's already next on my list.

It's Holiday season and it's my first time spending it miles away from home. I really miss the Philippines. I miss the puto bungbong, bibingka, caroling, Christmas Parties, Simbang Gabi ( though I don't attend Catholic Mass). Overall, I miss the month long celebration of Christmas. I miss my family to death.

Whatever!!! Ang drama ko na naman. Well, I am not a total loser this time, coz I will get to spend it with my new found friends.

Anyway, Last couple of month has been a roller coaster ride for me. I was assigned to different departments consistently. Ugh, talking about being the floater. Yeah it challenges me and at the same time because it is fucking tiring!!! I have always been a flexible one, may it be at work or in any other aspects of life. I believe that I inherited that skill from my father.

Believe me I have been meaning to update this blog regularly cause time flew so faassst specially when you are an OFW. Wala akong ibang hinintay kundi ang lumipas ang oras at makauwi / makapag bakasyon sa Pinas. Namimiss ko na ang pollution, itim na usok ng public jeepneys, mandurokot, dugo dugo gang, aso sa kalye at kung ano ano pa. It's more fun in the Philippines ika nga. Aminin!!!

It's now 9 o'clock in the evening and my shift will end in 30 minutes. Yeahh! ( Parrteey!!! ) Joke lang.

I just want to share my Top 5 songs at the moment na super gasgas na sa playlist ko pero paulit ulit ko paring pinapakinggan, yan tayo eh. ^_^

So, here it is.

1. Across The Night - Silverchair - I fell in love with this song the moment that I heard it.

2. Unconditionally - Katy Perry - Who wouldn't love Katy Perry? I got my nickname from here btw.

3. Have yourself a merry little Christmas - Michael Buble - Christmas season is in the air, I usually play this when I am sad to make me double sad.

4. Stonehenge - Ylvis - Kase makulit eh.

5. Where were you when I was falling in love - Lobo


Just listen to this song and you will feel like you are with me sipping wine and chilling at the veranda. Charot.


Love,

Katy

Kate says Hello

Where you are now is not where you will always be. There are brighter days up ahead.

-Joel Osteen

Hello! ( helow! )

I' m the type of person that greets someone with a high pitch, perky and with a wide smile hello! I always wanted to spread positive vibrations. Everybody has different struggles and problems in life but in my case, I don't want the world to know about it. As much as possible I am trying to keep it by myself but there is such a time that I needed to cry and have someone to listen to all my dramas in life. Thank you Lord for my friends. (You know who you are).

That moment when things doesn't go the way you wanted and imagined it to be? I feel ridiculous, devastated and unhappy at the moment. Hmmm. Should I kill myself now?...

Let me share you one of the craziest thing that I ever did when I am still figuring out how to cope with everyday dilemmas. There was a time back in college that  I dated someone. He always makes me laugh and I can talk to him about everything. It turns out so well until one day he stopped talking to me. I wondered why just to find out that he's back together with her long time girlfriend. Ugh! I whined like a baby, lose my self confidence, feel pathetic about my self and doubted my self worth and all the blah, blah thingy when a woman  is having a heart break. I even drag my friend to a pub to drink with me after school. I was so drunk that I couldn't even walk home...I went home and Papa saw me in that situation with my nursing uniform. Obviously, he didn't like it and I was grounded for a long  time. I wanted to blame my teenager's hormonal outburst. LMAO!
That thought me a major lesson in life. - DON'T BELIEVE IN ANYTHING THAT A GUY WILL TELL YOU. Sounds funny, corny, hard, bitter or whatevz but this is one of the necessary thing that girls should always have in their mind. I don't need to elaborate on this matter.

Anyhoo, that was like 5 years ago? Not sure but on the past 5 years everything has changed and I learned how to develop better coping skills.

I am now in my mid 20's and starting to think about my future. Dealing with everyday problems makes me think what and where should I be in the next 5-10 years. Btw, I am not seeing myself getting married in the next 5 years. I am more worried about my family more than everything else. That makes me sad everytime that I think of em' since I am living alone from afar . Me missing them so bad :((( but my mind keeps telling me "get up girl, wipe your tears, wear your favorite lipstick and be ready to kiss some ass". I always do that and after a few hours, I'm gonna be okay. That's how it usually goes. I am certain that I did finally learned this time.

I wanted to share the list of my coping strategies that really helps me along the way.

1. MUSIC - This is a temporary stress relief. I am now loving different genres lately. I am into classical music lately. I.E. Astrud Gilberto and Queen.

2. WISHLIST - this keeps me motivated to work my ass out harder. (:
Some of them are..

* PS3 - we had PS1 that I think it's so obsolute now adays. I mean, really.
* DSLR ( Nikon D5100 ) - I once had a Nikon D3100 and I sold it for some reasons.
MacbookPro - I don't know. It looks cool though.
*ENTERTAINMENT ROOM- new bad ass TV and home theatre for the family since we do love watching movies and series together.

3. The DON"T GIVE A FUCK ATTITUDE
-The lesser you give a fuck the lesser problems you have

4. FORGIVE
-Learning how to forgive the people who have wronged you would literally decrease the load of stress that you have. It works for me.

5. SEEK GOD
-Handling everthing to God may it be your financial problem, emotional problems or such would definitely help ya. I don't know how but for many, it is called "FAITH". But of course, you still need to get up and do something about it.

Favorite verse from the Bible:

I can do all things through him who strengthens me. - Philippians 4:13

Short and simple but has a great message.

When I am about to start writing this post, I am in a very low mood wherein, all I wanted to do is cry. I feel so demotivated, alone and pathetic about myself ( most of the girls can only relate to this ) but, while on my way through it, it reminded of the the beautiful things that should motivate me and how thankful should I be. Now, I am feeling a lot better.

How about you? What's your easiest way to escape the dramas in your life?

Love,
Katy